Who am I and why am I here?
I am a Marine Veteran. This was so often my response when asked, “who are you, what do you do?” I've had no other responses, in the past, because I didn’t have a clue how to answer that question. I still hesitate to really answer that question, because I am on a journey of self discovery that is taking me on a winding road, even at age 45.
Where have I been?
For more than ten years, and many years prior to my time in the Marine Corps, I lived on energy drinks, fat burners, salads, chicken and broccoli. Sounds pretty healthy, right? Calorie restriction was a well rehearsed plan, well that was during the week, of course. On the weekends I made up for all of the calorie restrictions by drinking lots of beer, pizza and fast food. Typical American eating plan, right? In my world, the goal was to keep my 5’ 7.5” frame under 155lbs, workout as little as possible, and have enough energy to work 12 hour days.
After my time in service ended and my fight or flight mentality, as it pertained to my health and fitness, began to settle and mellow out I began to notice myself. I was riddled with environmental and food allergies, slowly creeping weight gain (no matter how much I worked out), inflamed and painful joints, ever increasing hormonal brain fog and spacey/forgetfulness, sleeplessness and so on.
What has changed?
My light switch moment actually happened last year, 2017. At the time, I had been doing CrossFit for a few years but I was experiencing some occasional over-use injuries that weren’t healing up, it was right there and then that I decided that I was going to get my 200 hour Yoga Teacher certification. (and I knew that I liked yoga, so it seemed like a no brainer to do this) I also knew that I felt a deep stillness, a sense of calmness and a grounded feeling that yoga gave me which I had not experienced in a while. I knew that others should get the chance to feel this way as well and I felt that I could share this feeling, but there was still something missing.
How could I be a CrossFitting, yoga practicing, essential oil loving hippy when I was over weight, experiencing painful joints and restless leg, poorly sleeping yoga teacher example? How was I living my truth? How was I to expect others to follow in my footsteps
Where am I going?
I am going to share my wins, my experiences and my life in order to help others. Its my calling, its my own personal journey, its my human-ness. This is how life changing moments happen for not only me, but for those around me.